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Upcoming Performance… Not feeling well about it.
I’ve mentioned in a description of my recent two videos that I am to be in an upcoming performance on December 14th. It’s a burlesque/pole show, and it is 1920’s themed. I signed up for four one hour long classes that will prep me to be in the show. However, I signed up for a class that is brand-spanking new beginner pole. Which I am not. So I called and asked what kinds of things that we will be doing and when she asked a few moves I could do she said that if I was good enough she could give me a little solo piece. I really want that to happen, because my mother will be there seeing me perform for my first time ever, and a few of my work friends will be there, too.
I ended up having to call again today to ask about shoes, and I asked what kinds of things to expect (I hadn’t been to a class in a long time). She told me basics and then realized that I was the person she mentioned a solo to. And she said that during the first class, she would “give me an assessment of my skill level”, to see if she wants to give me a solo (the way I worded it sounds mean, but it wasn’t!). And now I’m freaking out about it. She said that to her, I sound like a Pole Level 2 (I said I had my Gemini and Scorpio). I didn’t know what that meant for her studio, and I can’t find a description on her site. But the picture for Pole Level 1 is a girl doing a closed Gemini (I can do that), and the picture for pole level 2 is a split grip ayshea I(I’ve never even tried that). And I’m really freaking out. And pressuring myself. I feel like I had to have an ayshea down by November 20th (the first class, and my assessment), or else I won’t be able to get the solo. PLUS, I know how to do moves – I don’t really know how to “dance”. Especially sexily, like the piece is going to be.
I’m not sure what to do. I’m also not sure which moves to work on next… I don’t know which will be best for me to learn. I know if I can’t do well enough to get a solo I will be really hard on myself. I will feel disappointed in myself… I’m just not sure what to do. :/
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