I know how frustrating it is (believe me!). Try not to be so hard on yourself. It’s always good to leave something alone for a bit and work on something else–a spin or a transition or pirouettes. Being back at Square One isn’t so bad! The basics are things that we all need to go back to all the time. Try to be patient. I "got" the caterpillar and then lost it for, like, 5 months. And besides, I think the concept of mastering a move is a misnomer. I mean, I know how to walk around the pole and so I think I’ve "mastered" it, but I can’t guarantee that I won’t ever trip or run into the pole (I swear I’ve done that a bunch of times…totally sober, too!). I think that’s what’s exciting about this art: you kind of get a chance to get in touch with yourself every time you get onto the pole and some days are incredible and others, not so much.