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STRESSED
Jesus tap dancing Christ ladies…I HATE living here with this miserable being I call a mom. I’m already aware of the things ppl say to me in this instance like “You only get one”. Yeah. …I know and quite ANNOYED at the fact. I can’t help but notice all my friend have such a great relationship with their mother and I’m pretty sure mine just regrets the day she went through with my birth. Allow me to give you all a general idea of how stressed out I am. Beginning of last year I was a healthy 160 lbs and maintaining it quite well. My appetite was normal (and it still is) and I was loving the weight on me. As of today I weigh, well…more like I’m teetering between 134 and 136 lbs, which of course I find to be unflattering on me at a height of 5,9. There’s nothing I enjoy more than whenever I run into my neighbors and friends, the first question that comes up is “oh wow eb’ what’s wrong…are you sick” or “OMG, you’ve lost so much WEIGHT”. Yes, I’m aware…about 20 something punds GONE aware of that fact. Before I can even think about getting back on Ol’Silver, I just want to get my weight back to where it was, because I honestly can’t stand the way I look and feel right now. I just needed this moment to vent 🙁
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I’m sorry you’re going through a tough time…
As I read your blog post, all I could think of was the fact that I am 5’9 and weigh 130-135lbs. I weigh less than you, and I’m fine with how I look! My mom was also complaining that I need to put on some weight, and I struggled emotionally with that for a brief moment because I used to be teased for being skinny, not having any curves, etc.
Being that I put so much effort into taking care of my body, maintaining a healthy vegan diet, doing strength/flexy workouts for pole, taking care of my health…it’s offensive for someone to look at me and tell me I’m not good enough because I don’t have enough junk in the trunk.
It took me a long time to get to where I appreciated my body and felt comfortable being small, so I had to check my mother and tell her I don’t like how she comments on my body-I get enough of that from men who harass me in the streets-and no one has the authority to comment or judge my body and tell me about it-regardless of their relationship to me. She apologized-sometimes you have to set boundaries with people in your life so they understand how to treat you the way you deserve 🙂
I think that’s the most important thing-is how you feel, not how you look. As long as you know you’re eating a healthy diet and exercising, your weight should fall where it’s supposed to be naturally. If you are losing weight due to stress, you have to assess your situation and figure out how to get into a healthier, happier space.
Hope I helped 🙂
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Its not my body that’s the problem…my mom just treats me like I’m just some random person off the streets. She yells about everything I do…I clean, its a problem, I don’t clean its a problem…there’s no riht in her eyes and she makes it seem like I’m a crappy mother. She doesn’t help me with my kids at all but always wants to steak claim when they get awards or compliments from their schools. My kids are nothing but bragging rights to her despite her lack of support. My son is autistic and has come a long wayin the past 2 and a half of therapy and school. She acts as thoughshe is the one sits with him thru all his sessions or wakes up at 5 every morning to make sure he gets on his bus safely…my daughter has been the honor roll four times since kindergarten and she swears kailah learned everything from her. The weight loss is just an unfortunate side effect of putting with everything for so long
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Are you staying with her? If not, I would distance yourself from her if she brings that much stress into your life….mother or not.
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@Lyme-I’m still living with her…so many unexpected expenses keep pushing my and my BF back on when we can finally move, which hopefully will be this year. My health is at an all time low but I can’t get a moments peace or rest cuz all she does is complain about how I DON’T benefit the apartment. I guess paying gas, lights,, doing ALL the grocery shopping and more means nothing
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Sorry to hear you are having such a rough time Hun.stay strong and try to b positive. Take care xx
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