[Kamilla-Denmark]

Haha. I can almost see it before my eyes. – that’s just like my mom to. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif But I think it’s important to keep in mind, that your own happiness comes first, and if the people around you really loves you, they’ll learn to accept you just the way you are https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_smile.gif

even though my mom doesn’t understand, and deffenetly doesn’t support my interest in poledance, i know it’s my life and my dissicion.. And I don’t have to answer to anybody but my self – neither do you https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_wink.gif😉

[Kamilla-Denmark]

Glitterhips – – – I’m so glad that there’s someone out there, who feels the same way I do.

Today, 4 days since he died, I realized something. I was listening the the song "smile", which gives me some sort of comfort, because Michael talkes about how important it is to just SMILE, even if your sad and it seems like the world is falling before your eyes. If you just smile, then tomorrow may be brighter. And I think that is so true, and ones again it shows how his wonderful music shines through and helpes people through their darkest hours.

I miss him, I really do. And it’s hard for people to understand, if they wasn’t a fan for such a long time as I have been. (my entire life).. — but Glitterhips, today I also realized, that Michael was the kind of person, who would want his fans to celebrate his life and his music and his achievements. He would’nt want us to mourn him – he would want us to be happy, pray for him, celebrate his music and just be proud of him. Becuase his music was what he lived for. He said so many times, that all he ever wanted was to change peoples lifes for the better with his music. I think he would be heartbroken to se people putting his music away, because it makes them sad to listen to it. – that was my reaction at first. I couldn’t press play on one of his songs, because it hurt me to know, that he was gone, and all that is left is a lausy recording of his voice. But i now know that it’s the wrong way to look at it..

We need to celebrate him. Appreciate his music and just SMILE ! And just acknowledge that Michael needed to be in peas. His body, mind and sould was tired and wourn out. He was exhousted, and I think it had been a really long time since he was truly happy.. He’s asleep now and in a better place. He’s happy now, i know it.

Tell me what you think ..

[Kamilla-Denmark]

In my opinion Beyonce doesn’t even come close. . . Michael Jackson was a singer-songwriter.. I wrote about the true issues of the world.. He really took a stand and said what everybody else only thought. He touched my heart, and even though I didn’t really KNOW him, I still knew him.. .

I remember growing up spening every minut reading about his life.. I learned everything about him, from his shoesize to his favorite coloure. The birthdays of his children to the exact times and dates of the relizes of his albums.. I have every cd that has ever been sold..I have every concert on dvd.. I even had tickets for his "this is it" concerts in London. I was supposed to go see him om july 14th… I just can not believe that it isn’t going to happen.. I was counting the days from several months before..

I thought I would just be sad a day of two after his death. But know on the third day, I still feel just a empty and hollow inside.. I am afraid to press play on one of his songs, because that feeling that used to be there when I listened to his music, that feeling of a real person being there behind the song, that feeling is gone.. Know there is only the empty recordings left. The music, that is frossen in time. . it just is what it is know.. It will never be performed again. It will never be changed og song again. It just is what it is.. It pains me.

I know it sounds insane.. But I feel like a part of me died with him. Growing up with his music and spending so much time "being a fan" and learning about him as a person, it just took up so much space inside me. He won over my heart just being who he was.

Michael was probably the most misunderstod person in the whole world. He never touched those children – ever ! It is just a perfekt example of everyone trying to get a big juicy peasy of his banana pie. I never believed a word of it. – and yes, his friendships with young children might have been inappropriate. But just think about it – He would never hurt them, he just never grew up ! He was a star from the age of five, when his carriere with the jackson five took of. – he never got to play and do childish things. He never got to go to school without being made a star of. He didn’t choose that life – his father chose that for him! Michael jackson was seriously scared, because his childhoos was taken away from him. He never really became an adult, even though his body grew up. In his head and in his heart, he was still a child. – people just couldn’t understand that.

I stand my ground – michael jackson was a beautiful person inside and out. And if only people would take time to listen to his music, just really listen, they would hear his cry for help. – Just listen to the song "childhood" forexaple..

Wow, that was a entire novel. Sorry..

I just really miss him. I feel so hollow and sad, and noone really understands how one can greive for someone that they didn’t know. But as a fan, you get to know your idol through the music, interviews, books and all that. He was a part of me and that part died with him.

He went to soon, all to soon.. It’s just not fair. I just NOT fair.. I am just so unbelievebly sad and heartbroken, and I don’t know how to get rid of this emptyness.

[Kamilla-Denmark]

Year, I guess they just have to get used to the idear of me growing up and all that. My moms having a little trouble accepting that she can’t control everything about my life anymore . . I’m sure that she, in the future, will learn to accept my interests.. Even if they are a little different than hers https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif

Year, and it’s a great website to !! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_wink.gif It’s really inspirational ..

How many years did it take for you to become such a great dancer? Have you been doing it your whole life, or ? ?

(and again, sorry if my spelling’s á little off sometimes… not used to speak in english.. hehe https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_redface.gif )

[Kamilla-Denmark]

yes i’m already doing does leg workouts, mostly because I thought it made my legs look great https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif
But I need to get started on my abs and arms, so I’m gonna do that..

Anyway thanks for all of your sugestions, It really help me.. all though I don’t think I can get my self to swing around in my neighbours flagpole, haha.. I think he’d kick me out on my but https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_joker.gif

It really sucks though.. If only I had a proper ceiling, it wouldn’t be a problem. Then I could just install the xpole from this site in my room, but if I do the ceiling will probably crack, so..

[Kamilla-Denmark]

It will happen, not overnight, but it will happen https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif

I believe it, I just have to get my self in shape. . and then figure out a way to get my hands on a pole.. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif

[Kamilla-Denmark]

Thats so great to hear. . Because if i’m honest with myself I don’t really believe that I’ll ever loose the weight. Maybe some of it, but .. hmm. . https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif

Well, I don’t know actually. I’ve been looking at that x-pole that’s on this site, and everyone seems to recommend it. But unfortunately I live in a small one-room apartement, and the ceiling is made of plaster. I really doubt that it’ll hold up if I installed a pole. So right now i’m thinking about what to do. I already thought about going to a studio – there’s one in copenhagen.. But I live an hour away, and studios are very expensive (I’m only a student).. Studiotime here in Denmark costs about 1000 DKK per month.. thats about 100 british pounds or 170 dollars.. so that a lot. So at this point I’m really going over every option, because I really, reallyyy want a pole .. haha https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif And soon..