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@jhenn…yes I know the post was Abt depression,which causes me to get the urge to seek pain….I have turned that urge instead of causing self harm have turned to sexual gratification…

I really appreciate everyone comments…

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I haven’t cit in yrs…I have found some other outlets, I do have piercings and am finding some comfort in ,well not quite sure how ti say it or if its appropriate…I have always shown interest in pain/pleasure during sex…but has grown more into if…last night I couldn’t get enough pain, my husband obliges and if it turned me onhe gets into it,but was afraid of hurting me because I have never been that vocal and demanding of wanting and needing more…I m at the Dr now,he made an emergency appt to see me.

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I am vulnerable to all those…..I have cut in the past,I have tattoos, I have a history of cutting and changing hair color all the time, yes I drink ocassionaly,but not to where I am out of control..I don’t do drugs,just what isprescribed….I need a night out of the house to just let loose and all inhibitions loose and b carefree for thenight…of course hubby would occopny me…

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I know some will not understand the pain thing…it is hard to explain or understNd myself sometimes..

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I know some will not understand the pain thing…it is hard to explain or understNd myself sometimes..

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Altho I have to say, ii have been on a cleaning hiatus which usually when I get in a dunk its the opposite…so its almost a manic state….I just don’t want to leave the house

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It’s been yrs since I have seeked pain…

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I am going to go to my aerobics class,even tho I don’t care for the teacher…I need something..I got my pole up two days ago and barely touched it..I m sure seeing how much I have digressed at it didn’t help…. I am wanting a tattoo this weekend,but have to get it drawn up first…which sucks because I feel the need for pain and was wanting thT to satisfy it…

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It may be the cooler weather and shorter days….I haven’t been getting out at all lately,maybe that’s part of it as well..I used to Gi to aerobics class,but both my favorite instructors are back to work…I do like on of the ones that replaced on,but she is there only 2 days a week…and I loved going atleast 4 times…the other instructor just isn’t my speed and motivational enoigh.

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My 14 and 6 yr old boys can’t wait till I put my pole up in my living room so they can really play on it….my 14 yr old is so impressed with how much strength it takes to pole..

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I take pride in being an ex-stripper..I am not ashamed and if someone can’t see past that then I can’t be friends with them….I never got into drugs or alcohol,not saying I didn’t do them on occasion,it was not a habit I got addicted to.I was able to support my son,had a new car and was able to save up to buy a house at the age of 20…I now am married for 13 yrs to a man I met in the club… I can honestly say the owners that I’ve worked for which is only 3 they all care for their employees 1 owner would actually give us Christmas bonuses depending on how long we have worked there…

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I registered for the website…che k these out and register and pic a pair…Iwill che k urs out and u che k mine out..the last girl on here won a pair

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I was very small chested

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That is the only way I know how to dance is in heels…I try barefoot and resort to tippy toes and wind up putting on heels…and still dance a lot on my toes,so I can’t wear heels with open toes..but yes,practice is the best thing…and really only thing..you may not look graceful nd sexy at first,but keep working at it..and you may experience soreness again in certain areas of your legs..

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Wow…$125 in house fees…I paid around $50 in west palm,granted this was 15 yrs ago, and at the time that was a lot…I never had a problem with the poles where I worked, but I have to say I have been back to clubs I worked at and they are not like when in worked there..they r run down I would not work there now nor have worked there ba k then…I met my husband at a club I worked at, and he never hit on me,I had to hit on him….one of my closest friends,male,I met him also at a club, and never has made a pass…but like I said the industry has changed very much…it is a hard industry to be in..I did it for a 4 yrs, and the last yr only worked weekends and had a day Job during the week…it was tru working at the clubs that I found my passion for pole Dancing, and I do feel it has made me into the strong independent woman I am…