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Oh and, btw, I had my period during two public performances. It’s just the way the dates were set. I was among about two-dozen petite performers who probably didn’t weigh much more than 110lbs or were 5’6″ tall at best. I felt hideously bloated and heavy, but I did not hear one word about my weight or overall hugeness compared to the other girls. My form and lack of tricks, on the other hand…lol.
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Let me just start by saying “cute” and “little” are words that I’ve never once heard to describe me. I am a 5′ 10″ tall woman and I fluctuate rapidly anywhere between 140-200lbs like it’s a damn magic trick. It’s just the way I am, (thyroid tested, strict diet, exercise, and that jazz…negative), just my psycho metabolism.
When I started poling I did EVERYTHING possible to make my body look better in videos. I super-edited out all unflattering angles and jiggles; I used b&w, shadows, and red tint to hide my veiny, cellulite riddled legs; I avoided certain moves even if I could do them because I didn’t like how they made me look; I hated my low ceiling because when I put on heels I was a serious giant and I LOVE my heels.
Then a funny thing happened. My less edited and polished videos were the ones that got the most praise/views. I DID get hecklers too, but rarely because of my body. I gotta say, I have received more compliments for my natural unedited body than anything else in my videos. I’m to a point where I could care less about it because I want feedback for THE MOVES now. lol
Guess I shoulda practiced more and worried less, huh? 😉
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@CorbyOConner
I actually had a funny dilemma concerning the bathroom at work today. They do not have a segregated bathroom there, everyone uses the same one. Well, you can imagine it was not very pretty in there. (toilet paper on top of the holder rather than actually put together, soap dispenser out, cracked mirror, dirty sink, dirty floor, doubled as a storage closet, etc.)
Anyway, my real dilemma was in the fact that the toilet seat was up when I walked in. I actually stopped a moment to consider whether I should leave it down or put it back up where it was. 99% of my co-workers are men so the seat is left up probably the majority of the time. In under a second, all sorts of thoughts went through my mind. How it may be courteous to put it back up much like how, “when women are the majority it is courteous to put it back down…but then if someone sees me leave they’ll wonder why the seat is up…but if I leave it down they’ll know I peed in here…oh, FOR CRYING OUTLOUD!”
I left it down, of course. Just sayin’, the thoughts I had were hilarious. I lol’d, just thought I’d share the laugh. xD
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Thank you for the tips!
Btw, I am not being passive exactly…just taking a more positive, mindful approach to this than I have in past jobs. I’m trying to avoid being “witchy” or overreacting to simple nuances. If anyone steps beyond my boundaries I always correct them promptly. I am no one’s doormat or plaything and I assert that quite well usually. Call-in’s I only take when I need the money and, boy, do I ever right now.
Still, I appreciate the advice. Being mindful, positive, and not highly explosive are very new approaches for me. I am a very sensitive person to change. Thank you for your insight! 😀
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http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5h4xAYyb65Y
Btw, this is the most recent pole vid that I could find posted to her YT account. If you haven’t seen it before (or even if you have) enjoy and subscribe! Maybe if we show her enough love she will feel more welcome online and post more often! 😉
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I would just like to say that there have been numerous occasions both Alethea Austin and Sarah Cretul herself have commented on how Sarah is not very involved w/ the online community. People tend to expect it, but they forget not everyone is into it. Perhaps she prefers speaking and working w/ others directly. Nothing wrong w/ that, in my opinion, but it does complicate things and make it difficult for others to develop a sense of trust when they hardly know you.
On possible fb account hacking, well, although I don’t use fb anymore I had added Sarah long before I quit. Towards the end I had wondered if it was actually her using her profile because the way she typed seemed a little off/different. I then thought “Well, if she is not especially tech-savvy or hasn’t logged in for a long time she may not even realize her account has been hijacked.” You know? Think about it. I do know her YT vids typically have years between responding comments from her.
I do believe she has some slanderers and, in general, jealous/threatened bitches trying to make her look bad. Just my view on it.
I do hope she is well and encourage that she maybe post a video to inquire about raising funds for her studio so people know it’s really her. It would be great to see her again. New pole vids too, please!!! 🙂
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Update:
Today went much more smoothly as I was called-in due to someone being sick (*cough*hungover*cough*) and NO ONE else would even answer their phone. Scored some brownie points w/ boss and crew, they were very grateful to have my help. A lot easier today, everyone seemed to ease up a little. Was nice. 🙂
Hopefully things will not be so awkward now. Thanks again for all the suggestions and encouragement!
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Thank you for removing the slander. Fast! Wow! 😉
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Well, thanks for all your advice and for sharing your own experiences! Wow, I really love this site, always so helpful. 🙂
Yes, I suppose I need to give it more time. It is very awkward, though, more so than any other first week at a new job. Eyes all over me, I say “Hi!” and people usually just STARE at me w/ a puzzled expression like “how did one of those things get in here?”. Lmao
It’s rather uncomfortable, but my boss and customers seem to like me so I guess that’s all that matters. Still…ugh…it’s weird when I’m actually there and this stuff goes on. Like “Yup. I have a vagina. Get over it!” :/
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Um. I question the authenticity of the account above me. Just sayin’.
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Chat option does not work on my phone. Only internet I have. Otherwise, I’d be in chat. lol
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Btw, thanks to anyone who actually reads or answers this. I posted this here because Veeners usually have great advice and I certainly could use a pep-talk right now.
Let’s see…here’s a way to make this pole-related. I WANT Veena’s new pole, this job would enable me to buy it. LOL
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I know! Me either! Lmao I guess maybe it’s a good thing it doesn’t exist or I’d probably spend way too much time watching pole than actually doing it. xD
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I just realized, I think Janeiro is an awkward looking move. I don’t hate or dislike it exactly, but it has very unusual lines and I can see how some polers may dislike it. Btw, I dub the Janeiro as the official Pole Move of 2012, Superpain as the move of 2011, and the Iron X as move of 2010.
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Just nerves. I’ve never competed, but I have performed publicly twice and had the same dilemma. Can you narrow it down to an artist that you really love? My first performance I kinda chose a song I don’t really love just because I thought it would be more of a crowd-pleaser. I advise AGAINST doing that. My second performance was much better because it was a song that had great meaning in my life. I knew every note and word by heart, was helpful. 😉